My answer is... Well gurrl, finding a job is hard! So the story continues!
That day I was very sad. I may have shed a tear in the privary of the courtyard at work.
BUT since "mujer preparada vale por dos" I had not stopped networking. The week of the second interview another position became available and I applied for it. I was scheduled to have an interview the Monday after I was "rejected" for the Chicago position. That weekend I was sad since my "life plan" was not going to go as planned, but I knew I needed to get over it, shake it off and prepare for the upcoming interview.
By Sunday I had still not "shaken" it off. Ugh.
Then I heard this reading at mass: (it's long, but come on, it's the Holy Gospel, you must read)
Thomas no longer doubts the resurrection.
On the evening of that day, the first day of the week, the doors being locked where the disciples were for fear of the Jews, Jesus came and stood among them and said to them, “Peace be with you.” When he had said this, he showed them his hands and his side. Then the disciples were glad when they saw the Lord. Jesus said to them again, “Peace be with you. As the Father has sent me, even so I am sending you.” And when he had said this, he breathed on them and said to them, “Receive the Holy Spirit. If you forgive the sins of any, they are forgiven them; if you withhold forgiveness from any, it is withheld.”
Now Thomas, one of the Twelve, called the Twin, was not with them when Jesus came. So the other disciples told him, “We have seen the Lord.” But he said to them, “Unless I see in his hands the mark of the nails, and place my finger into the mark of the nails, and place my hand into his side, I will never believe.”
Eight days later, his disciples were inside again, and Thomas was with them. Although the doors were locked, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with you.” Then he said to Thomas, “Put your finger here, and see my hands; and put out your hand, and place it in my side. Do not disbelieve, but believe.” Thomas answered him, “My Lord and my God!” Jesus said to him, “Have you believed because you have seen me? Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.”
Now Jesus did many other signs in the presence of the disciples, which are not written in this book; but these are written so that you may believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God, and that by believing you may have life in his name.
This is exactly what I needed. I needed to believe that "something better" was going to come along. That a better job for me will be coming my way. What is meant for you can't nobody, but God take away (Co-worker's words).
In other words, I had the blue attitude when I needed to have the red faith. (Who doesn't love color coded life lessons?)
That night I finally decided to let go of my sandness, have faith and prepared for my interview. The next day I rocked it and then a day later got an offer.
So what does Oprah have to say about this?
“What God intended for you goes far beyond anything you can imagine.”
... and ...
"God can dream a bigger dream for you... far beyond...what you could ever dream for yourself."
Lesson Learned? Do your best. Prepare to the max. Rock it. Pray and accept the outcome because God has your back. Amen.
Some flowers from blogger Heart of Light because the day I got the offer it felt like God handed me this mini bouquet. Yes, I am cheesey, eat me (and vulgar).