It's the LITTLE things

Sometimes it's the little things that brighten up your day.  Sometimes it's the little thing you buy yourself that brighten up your day... as it is in my case... almost most of the time.

Over the weekend I was over at Wal-Mart (go ahead, gasp!) and saw this goblet.  It's part of their summer outdoor collection so it's plastic, but it look "real".  I brought it in to work and it makes me smile.

That's all.  Just smiling like a dork because I have a cool pen cup.

Biggest Loser: Week 8

Week 8?!  Really?  So I weight in today and what happen?  NOTHING!

I was at the same exact weight as last week.  At first I said, yes!!! and saw it as an accomplishment!  I didn't gain any weight yuppy!  BUT really Eva?  That's an accomplishment?  NO!  I must get on it.  There is only two weeks left and I have to bring it on!  How?  I don't know.  I also don't feel very ambitious.

Maybe because I just had 2 chicken tacos which have put me in a food coma.  I will think about it and try to pump myself up.  I really wish I had a more positive attitude and was ready to kick this challenge in the butt... we will see.

Biggest Loser: Week 7

So I have good news and I have bad news... which ones do you want first?

The good?  Ok.  My team was in first place for week 6.  Yey!  This is our first time.

Ready for the bad?  I gained 0.60 lbs.  Yikes!  Well, not really yikes, because to be honest I didn't work out from Thursday to Sunday.  Yes, after I lost two pounds I relaxed.  Oops!  Time to step back in it!

I was going to weigh in later to see if that 0.60 weight gain had dissapeared, but I decided to stick to my words of weight is only a number and accept the 0.60.  A half pound is not going to put me down!

So far, 4 out of 5 teammates gained weight and I don't know about the 5th one.  Yes!  Misery loves company:)

Lesson Learned:  Just because you did well last week does not mean you can "relax".  Yes, I did relax because last week went well, so I did earn that half pound.  Now time to look forward and work it!

In other happy thoughts: I did do two good things last week.  I filed my taxes.  Yesss! Should be getting a return which will go to my hair zapping (aka laser hair removal)!  The other good thing is that I finally washed my couch slip covers.  My white couch is actually white again!  Aww love it!  I will have to post a studio tour soon!

Goal 2: Get New Glasses

The prescription in my current glasses does not feel right anymore so I have been wearing my contacts.  It's nice, but it gets bothersome, specially during the long hours of close week.

I have decided to change up my eyeglasses style since my current frames are looking a little worn.  I have decided to go with these Ray Ban frames.  They are small enough for my face, but long enough to be chic!

Now I just have to decide on one more thing...color?  I would usually go for black because I wear so much black, but the brown matches my hair nicely so I don't know.  I think the brown looks a little more stylish. 

Everyone I have asked has said the black, but I think I like the brown.  The guys said brown looked a little granny.  Decisions, decisions, decisions!

What do you think?

Biggest Loser: Week 6

Today started as a good day, but for some reason I feel down now.  I lost -1.8 lbs this week.  I was very happy because again I was scared I had not done that well, but I am glad it was a good week.

Lesson Learned: At first I thought my "lesson learned" was going to be to stay "Eva" through out this process.  What I mean by that, is that I don't want to give up things that make me... such as enchiladas.  Who would I be if I didn't eat enchiladas on a special ocassion?  Not me.  On Sunday I went to Maya Del Sol restaurant to celebrate Fabian's mom's birthday.  I kept on struggling with what I was going to order.  Part of me wanted to "be good" and order the salmon and the other part was "screaming" for the mole rojo chicken enchiladas with the chihuahua cheese.  I decided on the enchiladas and I do not regret it one bit!  They were delicious!  I was still afraid that they were going to hurt my weigh in today, but I worked out on Monday and had healthy meals.  So ONE of the lessons I learned was that it's ok to celebrate special occasions and allow yourself an indulgence... as long as it's not everyday!

Lesson Learned TWO: Now on to the other lesson learned...or actually the one I am trying to learn.  After dinner I told Fabian, "You didn't tell me I looked pretty."  He said, "Oh sorry, yes you look gorgeous!"  Then I asked him, "Why do I always have to remind you that I look pretty?"  His answer? 

"Because I don't want you to be full of yourself."

WHAT?!  Well, if you can't rely on your boyfriend for a self-esteem boost...who can you count on?  That's right, no one but yourself!  I can't wait for him or for anyone else to validate me.  I have to realize that I am enough, that I am pretty/gorgeous/smart...everything!  I am everything I was meant to be.  I am.

Now... "knowing" that, tell me why I started to get sad about my weight loss?  I have lost a little over 8lbs now and that is great!  What is not so great is that I have about 20 more pounds to go.  That is overwhelming!  Ahh!!!  I have to keep reminding myself of all the things that have changed ever since I started caring for myself and that it's not only about losing the weight, it's about enjoying life and making the best of my time here, with my family, with my friends, with my coworkers and with my love.

It's hard to take yourself out from a hole which you have dug up.  I realized, that no one else can get me out... specially if I don't stop digging.  So here is me halting the digging.  I already gave myself a pep talk, yes out loud because my ears need those words.  So this entry is attempt number two, because my eyes need to read these words.

I am enough.  I am of value.  I am everything I need to be.  I am.